Wellness check
This blog serves to some extent as a barometer of my mental health - when it is effulgent and rife with words, it means I’m doing well, my confidence is overabundant, and I’m willing to project my useless blatherings onto the Interspores. When it becomes ghostlike and silent, except for the occasional tumbleweed post, it’s probably the reflection of some dark stormclouds over my head.
Based on this assumption I can construct for myself a chart of my mental health history over the past few years, using the number of posts per quarter. Here it is:
Evidently 2005 was a very happy year for me. I was in the full bloom of my youth, I was in excellent physical shape, I was living with the best set of housemates I’ve ever had, and I had just taken a step back into graduate school, which at the time seemed fresh and exciting.* The proceeding three years are clearly the result of grim reality setting in, of a succession of defeats wearing down my patience and self-confidence - the usual business of a PhD program. The last few quarters are understandably muddled; I still haven’t learned how to walk in the surreal mooonscape of San Francisco.
* I was also the much-beloved neighbor of a bevy of beautiful and charming twenty-year old girls, whose company I sorely miss.
posted by saurabh in Bloorg, Health!, Insanity, Navel-gazing | 2 Comments
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